i have discovered that my secret, evil, goal is to make people jealous of me..:0/ ugh. im a horrible person...

but i had a really great day today. i woke up at 10 and was supposed to get up to go to the batting cage. so naturally i just decided to rest my eyes for a couple more minutes, thinking my dad would wake me up in a few. but then i woke up at 10.50- the plans were thrown off a little. oh well. i batted at the batting cages. it was fun. nothing else interesting. and then. and then... i went to this wonderful wonderful music store in wheaton and we talked to this guy who knew everything about drums. i was ready to buy a nice little 750$ set, pro- mark or something (it was nice), and my dad was like, you know, id really like to see you get that other set (which just happened to be a ��Pearl SRX!! set for 1500$) and i couldnt believe it!! so i had pretty much made up my mind and was going to get it, but when it was delivered to the store from the warehouse, it was the wrong color. so..no drums for me today. but so so soon. it will be amazing.

i said something amuzing last night. i was sitting next to sam and he said 'oh alie.. we dont hang out enough' and i said (and i quote directly) 'mmh.'

i think i probably said some other amuzing things too...but the night is really a blur. i was talking to andy on the phone and i was so..'not in the right state of mind'..that after he said something and then began another thought, i had already forgotten that the last part of the conversation had existed. erm, thats a little unclear, im sorry, its really hard to explain my experiences when im highh. but those kinds of things happen a lot. its totally like im going out of reality and i dont know whether things from even past seconds have actually happened. its really crazy. you should try it sometime.

erm..i mean...drugs are bad.

this weekend should be fun..well actually not. i really really need to study or i will fail my exams. literally. and i dont think that would be in any way beneficial to anything. well duh...

ugh. i had too much orange soda tonite. im too full. even though all i had to eat today was: part of a large boardwalk fries with vinegar, some tostitos bite sized chips, and a sandwich with one slice of ham. woo! ive also lost ten pounds since we got a scale. and i dont remember when that was. but still.. and im not losing any more. i think i need to start eating more than i have been. ugh. theres never real food in my house. ohh man, now im just going off on incredibly random tangents. i think ill quit while im ahead.

its 12:12 and things are going ok.

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