i wanted to write a nice entry in here, and then i made the mistake of getting online and talking to lots of people it's been a while since we've had this talk i think that's a song quote but hey you never know i guess i know a few more things now than i felt last weekend because we finally moved past the walls of the third floor to get out and feel something for a change like we'd been holding it inside so we walked across to south campus to find we didn't even need to go upstairs 3 levels but our friendly faces were sitting at a picnic table smoking which i don't hold against them it's really just different people's opinions to not want to change and we hung out upstairs with lots of eyebrow raising and hardly interpereted signals but i never got to hold her hand like some other people's but we walked down a the dark dirt road next to the resevoir with some mysterious light shining (probably not the moon) with our arms locked and finally having a conversation we arrived at the fire spot and there was beautiful beautiful music pouring out of every inch of every body moving and dancing and singing as we took a break to 'hum for a minute' being the musical talented students we are broke into harmony with the first person to start and there were trash cans and digeridoo players and spiritual recognition and fire jugglers it was very much unreal the way i couldn't decide whether to leave that or to leave her the way we ran up a hill and she kissed my cheek and told me to play with them like everyone else knew i was a drummer and said the same as jessica who finally pushed me up to a metal trash can and i played it so hard and really found out what it was like to get into the spirit of things i know i said before this was a spiritual event and 'you guys are always welcome' well it turns out i have huge bruises on my hands becuase who knew it was a stupid idea to hit metal barrels with your hands for 20 minutes while staring across a fire at who you're making feel this way and mixing up mixed signals with what you really want to be happening and having dreams that may never come true almost like they were the same night in the same time i can remember alisa's laugh so i'll always have someone to share that with during our class together the way i want it to be with so many others we didn't get to say goodnight the way i wanted it to be so much closer than we had been at the moment it wasn't a great end to a great night but i got a high five and a hug from eve but that was earlier than i wanted to come back i knew i should have come back earlier it would've meant so much more time.

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