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31 December 2003 - 4:13 am hi. i tried to go back and read over the year, but i couldn't do it all tonight. basically, i planned poorly and started to late, and that is the only reason i didn't follow through. i can't think of a word, or even a set of words that would describe this year. actually, that might be false. if i had to choose a word, it would definitely be 'kitty', but that's not very appropriate for this time or place. at this very second, i am tired, and still on western standard time. i should've aimed to write something at a time with more 'creative energy flowing', or even better lighting [seeing as right now i have a broken lamp covered by a football jersey]. [the football jersey also says 'metalcore james style' on the back. which happens to be funny in about 6 different ways]. in all seriousness, i have to say...i love. i love my life. at this point, i am working hard to better my self, my perceptions, and my experience here, and just live. really live. i thrive on beauty (that being beauty of objects, events, words, and not exclusively the beauty of a person) i like kissing boys. and girls. i love watching people experience their own experiences i tell the truth i am bad at definition. i am so proud to go to oberlin college. i am proud of the way i have changed within that community. i am proud of the way i am home, feeling the way oberlin makes me feel. but that is only a small portion of the past year. i have to say, looking back on everything, i really don't like high school. i did enjoy it while i was there, but there's something about it i am glad i've moved away from. this is maret i speak of. as for all the crazy wonderful beautiful intelligent sophisticated amazing people i know...i can't say enough. i've said it before, but i wouldn't be anywhere without them. i am the company i keep, as it shows (to me at least) in the different situations i encounter, and man, these 12 months (and everything before) have been exhillarating. to all the laughter, all the movies, the tears, the late nights, the shows, the dancing, the writing, the hugging, the diners, the long talks, the kisses, the new shirts, the shared beds, the burned cds, the teammates, the dress up, the sharpie markers, the mixtapes. to the concern, the care, the decency, the acceptance, and the love. wow. not that it's over. just chronologically. goodnight all. |
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